Pressure...

Pressure. Pressure. Pressure.

I feel it 24/7...all day. Everyday. It's not just music, but life in general. Feels like I'm in a race or something. And I don't like that feeling at all, I actually hate it. But I can't shake it. It's fucked up.

In music, when I first started doing this, nobody cared about what I made or how I made it or anything. I just did what I felt and had fun with it and enjoyed it because it was mine. But now there are people that expect this or that from me, it just gets tiring after awhile.

Personal life clashes with music all day, everyday. Not sure if I'm making the right decisions and its more and more choices to make everyday. You never know if you made the right or wrong choice until its too late.

The music industry just kills me too, when I sit down at my keyboard to create something I shouldn't have to have a guideline or "box" that I have to create in, I should be able to make whatever I want. And for the most part I do, but when you hear things like "I want a beat like The Dream new song" that shit makes me want to scream. But bills are coming in, and a son to feed. What do you do??? Do you sacrifice your art for profit, or do you say ''no'' and keep doing your own thing, your own way??




Just venting....